AMPOTA

I've been using and abusing that word. So what?


Haha. Eto na naman. Blabber.


Well I'm sorry. Writing is my only outlet. I like keeping all those emotions stuffy stuffy to myself. Good thing my friends are always present or else I'd get hyperventilation on a daily basis.


I dont think love can save me now. I can see that only myself can save me. But who cares? Who cares shit? I dont want to get saved myself and people know that. I have pulled myself down. I dont need pity.


Kaya sana hindi mo sinabi. Amp. Walang maitutulong yon tsong. Tangina, ako nga maingat na tinatago iyon tas ikaw .. amp .. Wala na kong masasay.


I'm tired of ranting about my misfortunes because .. haha .. it'd consume space. Luckily, I stumbled upon something. A new .. philosophy is it?


I'd just smile. God doesnt send problems we cant solve. I believe in hope. I think I've written it before in my blogs. I'd say it again. And I wont be tired of saying it. I have told someone I only look at the present. The future is uncertain. I have no idea what my future would be like. I know I have the power to mold my future. And I am thankful for that power, wherever it is right now. But I can never tell. No one could. A twist of fate would make life worthwile, or worthless.


So, whatever you all do, I'll still be me. Ana told me I havent changed. Fuck I havent and I dont see why I should. I am comfortable like this and my REAL friends love me for being this.
And one more thing. Try repeating this to yourself. PREJUDICE IS FUCKING SIN.


Judge me. To hell with any of you. I'm not going to die of your backstabbing or judging or whatever. Die of envy of me haha.


Okay. I'm sounding too bitter. Nakikinig pa kasi ng devildriver posers ngayon eh no. La lang. Oi, next song na pala. Strapping Young Lad.


Ang akin lang mga minamahal kong kaibigan, ako ay madaling lapitan. Ako ay nananatiling ako na kumakain ng kwek-kwek at kung anuman sa kalsada at kayang dalhin ang tsinelas kahit saan kahit na ang aking kuko sa pinkie sa right foot ay minordor ng sapatos kong patulis. Ako ay mananatiling maaaring iyakan at sandalan, ako ay mananatiling concerned sa buhay niyo. Ako yung mananatiling pam na nakilala niyo, kapalan ko man ang make-up ko, magpakalbo man ako, bumagsak man ako sa lahat ng kahit anong meron jan, ako'y ako at kumportable ako sa kung sino ako.


Wahaha. Watibir.





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hi! first i'd like to introduce myself. i'm pam. i grew up with a pen name of trix jones but now i'm thinking of using my real name. why not right? it's a nice name.

i love music. i love arts. i'm a Christian. my whole life i've been directed to the arts, well not that i'm much of an artist. i just find happiness in beauty and aesthetic things.

AMPOTA

I've been using and abusing that word. So what?


Haha. Eto na naman. Blabber.


Well I'm sorry. Writing is my only outlet. I like keeping all those emotions stuffy stuffy to myself. Good thing my friends are always present or else I'd get hyperventilation on a daily basis.


I dont think love can save me now. I can see that only myself can save me. But who cares? Who cares shit? I dont want to get saved myself and people know that. I have pulled myself down. I dont need pity.


Kaya sana hindi mo sinabi. Amp. Walang maitutulong yon tsong. Tangina, ako nga maingat na tinatago iyon tas ikaw .. amp .. Wala na kong masasay.


I'm tired of ranting about my misfortunes because .. haha .. it'd consume space. Luckily, I stumbled upon something. A new .. philosophy is it?


I'd just smile. God doesnt send problems we cant solve. I believe in hope. I think I've written it before in my blogs. I'd say it again. And I wont be tired of saying it. I have told someone I only look at the present. The future is uncertain. I have no idea what my future would be like. I know I have the power to mold my future. And I am thankful for that power, wherever it is right now. But I can never tell. No one could. A twist of fate would make life worthwile, or worthless.


So, whatever you all do, I'll still be me. Ana told me I havent changed. Fuck I havent and I dont see why I should. I am comfortable like this and my REAL friends love me for being this.
And one more thing. Try repeating this to yourself. PREJUDICE IS FUCKING SIN.


Judge me. To hell with any of you. I'm not going to die of your backstabbing or judging or whatever. Die of envy of me haha.


Okay. I'm sounding too bitter. Nakikinig pa kasi ng devildriver posers ngayon eh no. La lang. Oi, next song na pala. Strapping Young Lad.


Ang akin lang mga minamahal kong kaibigan, ako ay madaling lapitan. Ako ay nananatiling ako na kumakain ng kwek-kwek at kung anuman sa kalsada at kayang dalhin ang tsinelas kahit saan kahit na ang aking kuko sa pinkie sa right foot ay minordor ng sapatos kong patulis. Ako ay mananatiling maaaring iyakan at sandalan, ako ay mananatiling concerned sa buhay niyo. Ako yung mananatiling pam na nakilala niyo, kapalan ko man ang make-up ko, magpakalbo man ako, bumagsak man ako sa lahat ng kahit anong meron jan, ako'y ako at kumportable ako sa kung sino ako.


Wahaha. Watibir.





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