(the write ups of destiny)
(inspirations)
(let's talk)
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Old Lover, Same Band, New Life
Teaser : I'd like to live my life the way I want it
Same old love. Si yellow pa din. Well, not exactly na siya pa din ang love ko. Super moved on na nga diba? Tomorrow me battle sa PCHS. Baka sumali kami straumamystic. Yes yes! Bonding time! Long time no tugtog eh. Gushie shushie, sana okey si Tantin. And so kung ngayon pa lang magpapraktis? What is important is yung enjoy kami, di ba? Hehe. And then he'll be there. Kaya kasama siya sa topic. Kasali din sila. And I'm so sure pinaghandaan nila yun. Gaga to si Jad eh, ngayon lang sinabi. Ayus lang. Bahala na.
And eyun, aga ko pumasok. Kasi tinapos ko pa yung bibliography sa english. (so?) Haha, masaya lang! It's my first time na ganito. Well, not really. Basta minsan lang.
Kagahapon nag-mrt kami nila Chesca and Monica. Punta kaming Bambang, sakay mrt, tas baba akong p.gil. Same guadalupe jeep. Mejo mas mahal pero ang saya! Ang saya-saya! Lately, I've been so happy! Bakit kaya? Hehe, kasi nakapagtapat na ko. That you know I have feelings for my bestfriend. Ganito yun. . .
Bespren : Me tatanong lang ako sa yo ah?
Me : Anu un? *smiley*
B : Gusto ko honest ah.
Me : Kk. *smiley*
B : -quote- what if ever ma-in love ako sa yo
suklian mo kaya?
what if mahalin kita
mahalin mo rin kaya ako?
what if totoo ang text na to
at sabihin kong mahal talaga kita
magreply ka kaya ng
mahal din kita?
Me : (and I was so open-heartedly honest that night even though I havent had a drink) (syempre di na to yung exact words)
i dont know. anu kaya yung lagi kitang iniicp, lagi kitang gustong kausapin at pag kausap na kita ayaw ko nang ibaba yung fone? i think i like you. ewan ko. . .
(okay so syempre ayoko munang sabihin na i've REALLY fallen for him. . . kasi nga di pwede)
B : ah ok. . . *smiley*
Me : Ikaw?
B : Same question?
Me : Yes. . .
(after a few moments or I mean, seconds. . .)
B : Mahal din kita. . .
And there were other messages. Suprang late na nun. So I had to sleep early. God, I slept all smiles. And woke up with a really light heart. I know I have real feelings for him. Not unlike si . . . blue, who's all boyfriend material. Si blue kasi yung tipo ng taong matangkad, makisig, ayos pumorma. He likes me. But I dont think I really like him like I like B. Ewan ko. . . bahala na.
What's important is that I feel so happy. You know, people might say I'm so inconsiderate, or insensitive, or walang care sa paligid. Well I do care. Pero I dont problem other people's problem. I dont want to be affected. If they have a problem and they need my help, they can come to me. I've always been so open armed. Or if they have a problem with me, they say it straight to my face and we'll talk. Kung wala, wala e di masaya. I've had my own share of life's drama. My old friends and those people who really knew me can attest to that. I've had a past life that's worth of MMK. But everything, all that's happened, I'll keep in my diary and learn to get over with. See, a diary is like a history book. Everything's already happened and is part of a person's history. Nothing can be changed or undone. What had been d0ne had been done for a reason. And I'm thanking the old me for making me who I am right now. I learned most of the time not from my friends, or my family, or the society. I learned from myself. And that's one thing I would always cherish and be proud of. As of now, I'd like to live my life the way I want it. It's about time that I think I'd listen to what I really want deep inside, with no pretensions and no care about what other people will say. And everyday I will pass by the church and talk to God and thank Him for what I have.
I'll live my life as simple as that.
*smiley*
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