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New Phone, Old Love, and New Band
ay nakoo! nakakapagod tong araw na to ah! well, of course, lahat walang paalam. kasi nakipag-meet ako ngayon kina ice and mark. nag-aapply na mag-vocalist sa new band namen. ay shemai, madami na pala akong hindi kinekwento! cge share ko muna.
so first of all, I'd like to tell you all na me bago na kong fone and i'm so happy kasi sobrang swerte ko sa nabili ko! i wasnt expecting it at all. mukhang mamahalin pero secret ang presyo hehe. samsung sya tapos C130 yung model. colored yah, wala masyadong features pero ang ganda kasi its slim and small. so kahit sa breast pocket ko, kasya siya. o di ba? tapos new number na rin. iba na gumagamit ng old sun ko. sun pa rin. me balak mag-globe kaso naasar kasi me balance pa rin na piso na aalalahanin. wala pang call.
ayun. next naman. so nung last saturday, i think that was nung 20. something happened. nakausap ko ulit siya. si yellow. you know, really nung narinig ko yung voice niya, all of my emotions got so mixed up na hindi ko alam sasabihin ko chaka gagawin. i told bogs na mahal ko pa rin siya, and miss ko na siya. and jad too, sinabihan ko. i dont know why, maybe because i was so emotional. really i had a lot of regret. siguro part yung regret kaya gusto kong magkabalikan kami. kasi he's been a prince and i've been a bitchy evil princess. pero totoong namiss ko siya. i suffered since august i think and uptil january 20. . .
all i could say on the phone was "asan si jad?" chaka "hindi ko talaga alam sasabihin ko eh."
it wasnt a long conversation. i dont want to say much. i was scared. i knew all along na hindi niya na ko tatanggapin but i was still hoping like shit. jad naman kasi eh, kung anu-ano yung pinagsasabi. nah. . . there's no one to blame. at least the important thing is. . . I'VE MOVED ON. as in eto na talaga. and now, i think mas maganda nga na nalinaw niyang ayaw niya na kasi nawala na yung pagasa ko. i was like standing on a borderline, not knowing what to do. there were usually thoughts that maybe somehow pagkanagkausap pa kami, babalik din siya. now, my heart is relieved. kasi malinaw. so i can move on properly without looking back at the past . . .
and i'll spread my wings and fly.
next. so nagbuo na naman akong band. honestly matagal ko nang gusto pero kakahintay dun sa mga hindi naman desididung bandmates ko dapat, wala puro plano lang. ngayon totoo na to. hehe. wala pang name. pero buo na and nagkita-kita na. all we need now is a vocalist. a growler. sa four na mga inaya, 2 pa lang ang sure na magau-audition. bahala na.
ganito, i'd be vocals and rhythm/lead guitars, ashi sa bass, jervis sa drums and mikey sa guitars. well, wala pang kanta. bahala na.
inaaya din ako ng straumamystic na mag-buo ulit. game! ayaw na nga lang ni tantin kaya kami-kami na lang. yeeeh. composition level na to. hehe. tapos gagala pa kami sa . . .! haha, baka di matuloy pag sinabi ko. pag nangyari na share ko na lang.
anyway, so kanina nagkita nga kami ni ice. kaya late ako sa journ eh, hehe. dun kami sa may recto nagkita. he's . . . ahhh. ayokong sabihin impression ko sa kanya. woooh. i'm so afraid to fall in love. no, no, no. it's all in my mind. period.
next topic. next post. . . para sa isang tao lang naman kasi yun eh. . .
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